Goodbye, old Friend
In 2021, the Home was being finished the best we could by April. However on April 29th 2021. It was tough, very very tough. It was one of the darkest days in my life to be very honest. I had to put down our Dog who was with us for 12.5 years. A good run for a Doberman ! I have always grown up with Dobermans, even when I was born. They are to me, in my books, the perfect companion that I have being beside me in life.
I have also never had Cats in our Home growing up, though my wifes family had like 7 of them at one point and never less than 5 I believe.
No disrespect to any other Dog, but I do think that Toy Dogs that you would see at Desa Park City over the weekends, simply do not cut it for me. They are not ' DOG ' enough. They are more like show piece snacks for what Dogs really are in my books. And the owners are just like them too. They are fridgety, scared and paranoid the moment a Doberman or real DOG shows up. Huskies to me, are really unfair being in this country. Once again, they are more fluffy furry guys, but in a real DOG size.
Coming back, the Home was trying its best to be completed, Muhyiddin was happy to announce MCO 3.0 will be on the 1st of May till God knows when, and now, our Dog Betsy had come just in time before the MCO started to be given her last breath.
I have never been at presence when putting down any of our Dogs. It should have been a part of my upbringing. This was the first time saying Goodbye, with lots of Kisses, Thank You's, and harsh yet sweet jokes to keep her spirits up. Betsy was surrounded by my Brother who equally loved Dogs and introduced our first pure bred Doberman to our lives when I was small, as well as my Mother who also LOVES Dogs.
Soon, she was administered her last shot on this Earth and watching her breath get shallow, and fast, it was all over soon. I am choking up remembering this. It was a heavy moment and in the air too.
I have been in the presence of another animal that was put down in front of me, which was a Cat my wife Loved dearly. It was her favorite Cat.
From what I can say amongst both moments is, that something very magical happens the moment an animal you Love takes the last breath here on Earth. For a brief moment, it feels like Light has finally gone back to Light. There is calm. That its all over. There is no more stress, no more pain or suffering for our beloved ones, and now comes the pain. The pain that comes onto us.
Once it was over, my Mum and I bought a bouquet of flowers and passed it on to the Vet that had helped give Betsy her last breath. No seeing of the body any further and we told the Vet to bury her with our Yellow bouquet of flowers.
Upon returning Home, my Mum, equally heart broken said we have to remove her belongings like her pillow and toys and have them placed outside the Home. There was still work before any Grief can really take place.
Grief they say has 5 stages :-
Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Grief
Acceptance
All of which I had gone through. Anger and Grief came in waves for a few days. Now Im stuck at home at my Parents with Muhyiddins beloved MCO. What do I do ? It took me 3 days before I could have a meat dish, and have a drink at night once I had reached the stage of Acceptance. From Acceptance, we move on.
The shitty part about this is, there is no end in sight to when MCO 3.0 will be lifted. Fuck me, I am in a limbo back and forth of Grief and Acceptance.
This was the Worst MCO ever.
MCO 3.0
"Tuan Tuan dan Puan Puan",....
famous fucking words before an announcement of yet another closure of businesses and work. To which I was not giving a FUCK further and decided to pick my ass up and do some work for the Home. Yes, I went in illegally to the factory as well to do some work, just like Millions did. But I did MY work for MY Home that still needed finishing. This Sunnafabitch has robbed enough time from me, I am continuing with my life. I couldnt be arsed anymore.
I was in a Dark place, and the only thing that would keep me going was the HOME that needed finishing.
From having a Dog or DOGS always, all my life, now I have,...NON. And this would be a long absence of practically 7.5 months ish before I would be reunited with a new Friend finally !
During MCO, a little work at the factory, or on the Home, and in the evenings walks with Wifey helped keep things in line a little. But night would fall as it always does, and drinks, sadness and depression would sink in. It was mental Pressure, Depression.
Walks were a little hard for a while, I always walked with Besty as a friend, and walking in the evenings now, its just Wifey and me, and there were days where it was just me alone. We would walk the same roads I used to walk with Betsy on.
By the way, I used to walk Betsy without the Leash.
Looking back, it was a dark time, and I had Depression. Real Depression. Its was being manifested in Drinks. Suppressing these emotions and thoughts further of my recent Loss, and a Deeeeep almost no Progress to moving into our new Home.
Everything had Grinded to a very slow pace. I was tired of the MCO's, the time it took with fucking Council for approvals, the Loss of Betsy, no Work that I could do for clients. It was tough. Very hard. I even attended an AA meeting as it got out of hand, and did this by myself, but just once. I walked away realizing this wasnt for me. I had to figure this my own way out. I did realise, that there are way more people who have got it worse than me and today, I ought to be more thankful.
There was hardly any right that was going on despite all that I tried. There was no alter personality like my Dog to give me smiles and light up my already fucked up mind and heart that I am as a person =). Nothing to greet me unconditionally despite a shit day or a good day. There was no wit. There was non of that. There wasnt even sarcasm. It was empty. No dopamine, except with whats in a Can or Bottle in the evenings.
These were Dark Times, I lost one of the most important parts of me that makes me who I am. Dog (s)
FUCK MCO 3.0
Getting out of a Limbo
Soon I started taking care of my health a little, drank a little less, exercised and got myself in slightly better shape and strength. Things were beginning to be more Accepting and I was moving on, but I wasnt really over my Dog.
Laugh your ass off, but I love my Dogs, and especially real Dogs, not the shit Dogs that come out from Alphards with a sliding door that has a name called "Fifi" and is a Pomeranian cunt on wheels (in a Baby Stroller) and Yaps the fuck out of anything in Desa Park City like it owns Desa Park City.
Fifi though would make a good snack once put through a meat grinder (with hairs removed of course) for the Dogs I have.
Anyway,
About 3 fucking full moons later, I started looking at Pups again. Somewhere around June or July ish. So now, the hunt is back on. But I was looking at of course, a Doberman during MCO 3.0
Some of the stories will shock you. This is going to get more lengthy but its my story and its mainly for my own documentation.
DOBBIE HUNTING
Now Im not an expert at Dobermans, I have had 4 in total growing up, but if you are looking at a Doberman through a breeder, here is some advise :-
1. Ask if the Parents are with the Pups (ALWAYS !) So you could take a look at where those genes come from
2. Ask if its just 1 Parent, at least the Mum is available
The rest, can be figured out from any lowyat person online that has enough oxygen in their brains to give you advise.
3. First Dobbie ? Do get a Female before looking at a Male.
4. Be physically fit enough and able if you can to handle them. I dont walk my Dog enough as I used to, but be physically fit enough to handle a these Machines. Dobermans are muscular and strong. They are after all, working Dogs, unlike Fifi the Alphard driven cunt.
5. Every Selller / Agent will say their lineage is from some Champion the Pups Grandfather won. Dont need to bother about that personally. Unless you are VERY Serious. To me, every Doberman comes with some Grandfather who was some Cheras or Kepong Champ. So fuck that.
6. The Environment of where the Pups come from should be from a Good Environment. Its ok to have a small home, a single storey etc. However, the environment of these Pups MUST be from a good environment as these are Pups that require some Space. I dont judge if they are from a small home, I judge the Environment they come from.
7. Are they American or European in Lineage or Both ? What Kennel do their Lineages come from ?
If they cant answer with proof, fuck their Cheras Champion Lineage can fuck off. Every Doberman comes from some kennel, and they all have certain traits to look out for that are unique to the Kennel they come from.
HUNT 1 - Circa June & July
I engaged with a Friend who had bought a Dobbie through a breeder in Damansara Jaya. I got this breeders number and he made an offer to a Pup for a slightly cheaper price for a Male as it only had 1 testicle. So from the get go, this was feeling very back alley.
I asked for a Black and Tan Female and the Breeder says there were only Rust coloured ones. He convinced me that his 45k USD Male stud from Argentina produced good pups. However the Pups were in Penang. How am I going to gauge a Pup thats in Penang ? Its as good as taking a risk on the shit that you buy online from Shopee or Temu.
He showed a video of the Dad who looked,....well to be honest,..not bad but I wasnt going for some super lineage. It wasnt working out for me so I decided not to persue further.
Later, I learned that my friends Dog had passed away which was sad news because he had always wanted to keep a Doberman, and he had bought it through this first guy.
HUNT 2 - THE WORST STORY EVER - Circa July & August
Wifey shows me that on Instagram, there was someone breeding Dobermans in PJ. Great ! Our area. We also have a ' Common Friend ' that links us to this Breeder. I message the bloke and theres no answer. It took this guy a day before he responded after leaving him a message.
I asked to speak to him over the Phone, which is always a sign of a good responsible owner who wants to keep such Dogs to be serious. Fifi the Pomeranian can be bought through a decision of a video on Whatsapp, But dealing with Dobermans to me, or any Dog should be done the right way.
However this guy was slow, and eventually we spoke the very next day.
He sounded sloppy, sluggish and stoned. Very turning off. But when it came to price, he was very firm on it. So you would expect a good Breeder to at least be more communicative with you at RM 3,500.00, but Nope.
But it will soon get worse into a real Nightmare as the story progresses.
We talk and I tell him my story, how many Dobermans I had, ask him how he got into breeding bla bla bla. He asks me some questions but nothing really of what a Doberman breeder would ask. He is young in his early 30s at this time.
A decent breader of Dobermans would generally ask :-
1. Do you love Dogs ?
2. Have you had a Doberman before ?
3. What kind of space do you have for them at home ?
4. Do you have other Dogs at home ? What breed are they ?
5. Are you versed with the Breed ? Do you know what to expect ?
6. Why do you want a Male / Female ?
Non of which, are this Breeders concerns where these Pups soon to arrive will be one day going to from interested Buyers / Future Owners
He says that the Parents can be viewed, which is great ! Though the Father is hard to get hold of but still, some plus points. The Mum is due to give birth around October and once the Pups reach 8 weeks old and have been vaccinated they can be taken home.
I requested for a Female Black and Tan when the time comes. Told him on the phone, and sent messaged reminding him.
October arrives, and I send him a message asking him how are the Pups and he replies very slow. Once again, I do the follow ups, he doesnt inform me on any progress. He informs that there are 2 Females.
Great !
I say please let me view both of them when they are old enough so I can make a selection. All sounds promising. I remind him to please let me know when I can come in November to view them.
November comes, no response, ask how the Pups are no response. Seems like I have to do the work of keeping things up to date instead of him remembering to text a serious owner back. It begins to feel like HE is the Customer, and Im the seller. When I feel this way, it pisses me off.
Finally I get an answer around the 11th of November ish, " I want to keep one of the Females, you can have the other "
........What ?
Okay, should have told me about this sooner rather than being a Prick for the high price you are asking for. If you were straight up from the start, it would be better than leaving things to the fucking last second to let me know on this.
I settle down a while and its mid afternoon and thought
" I guess he wants to raise this Female for breeding in future, so fine, lets see anyway "
Wifey also says just see anyway. We are set to see the ' PUP ' the next day.
So I say "Can I see then ? Also, both parents are around right ?"
And his answer was " No "
Huh ? Why is this prick jerking me off ?
To which I ask this guy " Okay what about the Mum who is yours ? "
To which he says " I will arrange for that to be possible "
Its quickly turning skeptical, fishy and a little fucked up. Not only do I have to push to ask for viewing, you dont reply, and you are not forthcoming in the first place, you are telling me vague shit and expecting me to pay at what the market rate is for a reasonably priced Dobbie and Im unable to see at least one of the Parents easily and you have kept my patience and interest dangling. All this from a young cunt.
Finally he says
" Actually the Father of the Pups belongs to our mutual friend, and the sister who is the Mum belongs to me "
?
What ?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You can imagine how pissed I was, months waiting, and this is what he says. I do not reply him but he does ask if I am interested and the Price is okay we can go ahead. I shared this news with wifey and it was very disappointing and left this irresponsible son of a bitch a reply and said
" This is as far as we go "
I replied this price hours later in spite back in return as just as how he had jerked me and now is looking to trade, he gets my last second answer that he will not see my coins in his hand.
It was really fucked up that hopes were up and this sack of shit played me out and if you ever hear of anyone in PJ who is selling Dobermans, please be aware. Especially from Instagram.
There are some cruel people who inbreed irresponsibly.
That Evening I drank and was very upset. Exceptionally so.
Wifey calms me down and she understands how fucked up things were. She sends me advertisements on Mudah and shows me a Doberman in Subang Jaya who had not many pictures, but was a Female Black and Tan and asked for once again what I considered a ridiculous price at 3,800.00 Ringgit.
I was furious that prices were high, and couldnt trust breeders, I lost faith. I understand that if prices are high, but breeders around this range offering a 1 testicle dog, and inbreeding, is really what we are hearing at this range, it really doesnt make sense.
Little would I know, that the RM 3,800.00 Dobbie, would eventually make its way to us
I show her a RM 2,200 option in Klang and tell her lets go to the Klang guy tomorrow in the morning and we both agree. Plus the RM 3,800.00 guy in Subang sounds snobish for price. However it did say in the Advertisement " Serious Buyers Call Only"
HUNT 3
November 13th comes around and its early morning around 8 : 30 am, so I call both options on Mudah,
a) Klang Guy
b) Subang Guy
Of which the Klang guy responds and says we can meet around 11. Klang Guy isnt from Klang, he is simply just a broker who knows where these Pups are. However the Pups are 6 weeks old and I still dont mind looking at them and if its good, I can take a Pup home when its 8 - 9 weeks old.
I found the price fair and I looked forward to heading to Klang.
Meanwhile, I called ' Mr. Serious Buyers Call Only ' at 9 AM and he didnt pick up. To which I said
" He must have been on Champagne last night celebrating his RM 3,800.00 per Pup he sells at, so hes hungover "
So I left Subang Guy whose name advertised on Mudah was Lum Ken a message saying I called but you didnt pick up and asked if I could speak and have more information about the Pup. No reply or call back.
Meantime, we head to Klang and meet up with the Broker who brings us to see the Pups that were at a Home. Unfortunately, this didnt work out well at all.
While the Parents were visible and had a great size to them, and I must say, its was GREAT seeing fully grown Dobermans again after so many months ! Their paws were big, and all,
However, the Pups were kept outdoors, at the side of the Road, in front of an open area with a bit of empty land in cages.
It was a stressful situation and to make matters worse, there were other breeds there too which included a Bully, and there were many dogs in cages that were constantly barking.
I viewed the Pup who was 6 weeks old, and felt that these guys were looking for a quick sale, no vaccination was done yet, and I decided to leave empty handed because they were being raised in not a good environment and it was not fair for any pup to be taken home at 6 weeks old which is what they were hoping would be done.
Disappointed again, 3rd try. So we have : -
No Testicle Breeder of Damansara Jaya,
Inbred Breeder of Petaling Jaya (Who is a fucking inbred irresponsible mutt himself), and
Tepi Jalan Quick Deal of Klang.
It was not looking well. How do I even come to these sort of options. Fuck me.
So we head home, it was the right thing to do. No Puppy, we came prepared with a Box, but came back empty handed in the car with an empty box and towel.
While all the Drama of all the Hunting was going on, my Wife Adopted a Cat as well. This was close to a time around October and now there were 3 of us !
Snuggles
Teenage Snuggles. He doesnt have a proper Birthday, but he was estimated to be 6 months old here which puts him around 1st of April or April Fools Day =)
I will admit though, that I thought we would have a Dog first, but it turns out the Cat arrived first. Nevertheless, bless that we have a Cat that was adopted after some jerk knocked it down on Jalan Maarof on Bangsar and now we have an Indoor Cat as his hind legs will never be that of what a normal Cat is.
That aside, I dont know how to love Cats the same way I love Dogs. Growing up always around Dogs, its hard for me to get along with Cats. So the Cat arrived, was given a name Snuggles and I still had no Dog in my life.
We had moved in, but it was still Empty in presence of having a larger living being.
HUNT 4 - Subang Jaya Guy
14th November 2021
After returning from Klang, I get a message Mr. Subang Jaya guy in the evening.
Defeated in HUNT 3 in Klang, this was the only other guy in Selangor and KL during this time that had a Doberman for sale and the rest were asking for even more ridiculous prices. So this now was my next option with Mr. Subang Jaya aka LUM KEN
So I decided to message him again and lo and behold ! He replies !
Wow, he must have had a masssssive hangover in order for him to message back this late ! Mr. RM 3.8k for a Dobbie Pup with a delayed response !
TRIGGER WARNING TO INDIAN READERS BELOW, YOU WILL KNOW WHEN YOU SEE IT IN MY CONVERSATION WITH MR. LUM KEN
Here is how our Conversation took place :-
Somehow I thought that Lum Ken might have been the same breeder as where we bought Betsy before. I hoped he would say Yes
Damn, not the same Breeder as where we bought Betsy. Now its time to Crack open a few cans and see where this goes. Was on the Balcony enjoying the Sunset while talking to LUM KEN
Taking in the Sunset, while talking with Mr. Lum Ken on the 14th of November. Mr. Hangover Serious Buyers Call Only
Look at these little Cuties !
Our conversation slowly warms up and gets quicker. I was taking notice of this. Was a turn off from Mr. Inbreeding Swine. The Pups are mixed in origin.
So you know. European Dobermans are more heavier in bone structure, and the Americans are lighter, slimmer and leaner. So its a Mix here which is fine.
See, now you know. Unlike Fifi the Executive Lounge Alphard piece of shit whose owners dont care where Fifi the Pomeranian is bred, we Dobbie people are a little different. We take like our proper DOGS
7 weeks, better than 6 weeks from Klang. 1 week at this stage for a Dobbie Pup is a huge difference. They are one of the quickest Dogs to grow
Yes, we can view this Pup. Its also good practice if you have a Dog and are picking up a new Pup to thoroughly wash yourself before any viewing in case of any diseases that can come along with you or ticks from your home.
I didnt realise that he had not asked me much about myself. So I asked him to be free to ask me any questions. I was suspicious that this guy is also just not interested in knowing about potential new owners. Usually, good Dobbie breeders would ask, this guy didnt.
Here we go with the Champions bla bla bla
And then, he goes ahead and asks me the question that,....well as Malaysians, everyone know this,...if you know, you know
Did you see it ? =)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! SO I FINALLY GOT ASKED THE QUESTION !!!!
At that moment I didnt know if I was to laugh or be upset ! Its the first time I got asked, if I was Chinese. Fucking LUM KEN, it was all going well, and now you fuck things up.
I got so pissed and it was so hilarious I drank a couple of cans more ! I told wifey about this and decided fuck it, Im going to have dinner.
So I just made it simple and got to the point after having to describe to LUM KEN what kind of ethnicity I am. As Malaysians, we are really a fucking Naive bunch. There are many who dont know what Sikhs are. You have to describe Sikhs with the most famous of them in this Country such as I did, or tell people "You knowwwww, the Turban waaaaan, Chapattiiiiii"
Chau Hai.
I dropped it, and to make matters worse, this Chibai then asks about Price. So I decided to pause this guy for the day. Chipek Hai ! LUM KEN !
Another Frustrating way to end the Day. I was boiled by now.
November 15 2021
I message LUM KEN in the morning, and I started on a different note. The night before ticked me off, and I was wondering how many people breed Dobermans in Subang area around Ara Damansara ?
Haih
Haiyaaaaah ! You fucking advertise, then you still fishing with me when someone else has already booked. Now Im ticked off. You asked me a stupid question last night, and now it seems like you are playing cold with me.
Finally an address
Haih, now you are saying 2 interested people. Make up your mind lah. Dont jerk me around. You want to do business or not ?
He gives me his address finally. And I took a look online at the address and,... I was skeptical.
At least this guy gave a time and address for a viewing.
A little Dodgy the address given
It was Dodgy because the address given didnt match on Google Maps. Plus it was very nearby an industrial area which I thought was very weird. It all DOESNT add up. This was the house for the address given, super Dodgy. But STILL, I played along and was getting weird vibes and told Wifey she has to come along since this was her recommended Guy in the first place. LUM KEN
What the hell have Doberman People come to !
November 16th 2021
Circa 9 40 ish, slightly Hungover on the way to LUM KEN, I told my wife if this guy is jerking me around, Ill waste his time and offer just 2,200.00 for thats what was offered at Klang. Champion Line bla bla bla can all go fly kite. Had enough. I was really looking forward to seeing what this jokers face looks like and seeing LUM KEN in real life finally.
I actually was going there with the intention to insult this guy on his face for wasting my time. And we arrive at his house on time, 10 am, and give this guy a call and he doesnt pick up. Fucking Dodgy as hell !
Waiting to meet Dodgy LUM KEN
LUM KEN calls me around 10 : 05 and says
" Drive up the road about 200 meters, you will see a Gravel road on your right, take that road and travel on it for 100 Meters, my house is the Blue one on the Left "
and he cuts the call.
....................................... Huh ?
What kind of Sniper mission is this in Grand Theft Auto ? Its getting MORE Dodgy and weird.
Gravel Road, Blue House.
I told Wifey " He speaks good English. And he sounds,.......maybe Indian"
So we do it, and,.................
We drive on the Gravel Road, and about 50 meters in the landscape Changes into a Beautiful Valley, Sun shining and all, and there are houses with Huge compounds and soon, we arrive at LUM KENs Blue Wall House. Like SMURF Blue. Seriously, the walls are Blue and they are very tall.
What the heck is going on ?
I call him outside his house, and he opens his Driveway that has a 6ft incline and I cant see the whole house yet. Iwalk up the incline and finally see his Huge Blue Smurf Bungalow and its massive.
Out comes LUM KEN from his front door with a mask on and says " Just bring your car up the driveway and park inside "
And I stood there a couple of seconds and then said " Okay "
Wifey was Outside in the car, and while walking down his huge ass inclined Driveway, I asked myself
" Did I just see that guy with a Turban ? "
Anyway, I walk down to the car, grin on my face, get in the car with Wifey in it and simply say
" We have come to the right place "
She drives up, sees LUM KEN and she too, now is puzzled. LUM KEN is a Sikh ? Since when did Punjabis and especially Sikhs breed Dobermans ?
Wtf is going on ?
LUM KEN as it turns out (Which stands for Luma Kennels) is an avid Rottweiler breeder and also has a Doberman as well.
He has a Ciku Orchard, a Huge Swimming Pool for the Dogs to work out in and a huge compound for the Dogs.
I Finally meet our future Pup, who we named BAMBI, whose original name was Alice
LUM KEN said he would give me a 100 Ringgit Discount and I said "No, how we have met is fate, Im giving what you asked for, not a cent less"
God, had the last laugh here. And so did LUM KEN, he knew before hand, this was going to work out. And if I didnt listen to Wifey, this would have all not worked out.
20th November
The day came to pick her up. And I asked for LUM KEN to show me BAMBI's Mum, and here she is.
LUM KEN's young son really wanted to keep Bambi, and thats why he asked for a higher price as well as it turns out. I was torn. I bought him some chocolates the day I picked Bambi and told him of my loss and he does not have to worry, she will be in good hands.
Bambi's Mum. I said thank you to her for allowing me to take care of your Daughter
And off she ran, and looked for a Ciku. So much space and even a Pool for the Dogs
And now, here is Bambi
Cute Pose and Bambi eyes !
Strong, Tender, Naughty, Smart and Loving
And soon, it was time for her first Nap, and,....
We all took rest
Ill say, I did cry. Lots of Pain, and lots of Joy. I felt whole again.
Soon, the lawn would be trashed, but for now, so much was being blessed upon
She would meet Snuggles, and they have become the best Frienemies
She had a rough week with us at first, and she bounced back in weight
Snuggles would be outgrown
Bambi would be introduced by December to Eggs, and some wet food
Her snoot gets longer by Christmas
And even longer by 30th of December
6th January, her ears are trying to stand up
No, Dobermans dont have naturally pointy ears. All Dobermans during growth will have their ears alsmot stand up, but due to their quick Growth rate, Calcium in the development of the ears Cartilage is used by the body for other areas that need Growth.
Unlike Fifi the Executive Lounge Pomeranian little shit who has her ears up, Dobermans naturally have their ears down.
By February she was as big as her bed
Having her first walk at Fifi's favourite place
IG'ing
Terrorizing Corgis, Pomeranians, Poodles and the usual Alphard Executive Lounge Dogs at just 4 months old
March and her ears are slowly coming down
Being elegant here
June
At the Sea
And by 9 - 10 months, we had a grown Dobbie. Though not completely Grown, but she had just little bits to fill up in the last 2 years.
Still a Pup at this stage
One Elegant Dobbie, on the staircase Drooling,......
Unwilling to cooperate to get out of the house
Life, was back to being kinder again, and the pressures of the Home and the tough loss of Betsy were many lessons. The Home finally was being filled a little more.
And soon, I would become a Dad, and another journey would soon begin. I am blessed.
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